remember me

"... everyone's life is a story, some are just best sellers~ " 

i've seen a lot of people have their own sticky "list of stuffs that needs to be done before i die" posted on their wall. typically those list would look something like this~~

it's a good thing that you have something to drive you, to motivate you to become a better man day by day. but after the list completely checked, then what? Get old and die in piece?

I've posted a similar stuff before, and I feel really good about it... or was.

I'm not saying that personal goal is not good, but sometimes I feels like it's kinda selfish (yes, I am talking about myself) .With all of the knowledge and power of... uhm, whatsoever, why would I still fail to make a big impact?

I lived my life for 27 years, and I fall in love with life itself - people - family, friends, friends that is more like a family, friends of friends, the maid that never failed to clean up my cup and desk every morning with "selamat pagi adik" and a smile on her face, my co-workers, strangers that become friends, strangers that looked up upon me (and i would be happy to humbly bow so that he or she wouldn't have to raise their heads anymore and feels comfortable), and even a complete nice stranger. no matter how bad people would be, or whatever they did to you... i always believed that there's good in everyone somewhere, regardless~

This motivates me to do a lot of stuffs (well, at least i did something before throwing the frustration over here), Had the moments, and it drives me to reason to live.

But, I helped like what? one, two, dozens of people, and that's it! I know it changed their life. Students that become your best friends (or facebook best friends), some emails like this. it does something to you.

I just think this is not enough - i haven't done good enough, although I know I could be and do more.There are so many other people that would need my hands to live a better life,  may god forgive me for so being so naive.

Great prophet Muhammad SAW reunites the Arabs and draw a new history in era of civilization, Albert Einstein makes it possible for people to travel thru space, Mother Theresa symbolize freedoms... and Bill Gates makes computer so easy to use for everyone.

I know I am none of the above, but still I hope one day people would remember me for not being naive.